Well I am here sitting in the terminal waiting to board flight #1 to Stockholm. It has been a long and exhausting build up to this moment. From saying goodbye, to packing only 50lbs worth of stuff for 4 months to all of the emotions that come with moving yourself across the ocean in the pursuit of knowledge. I am scared, of that there is no doubt and there is no point hiding. Everyone keeps telling me, you will be okay, everything will work out. Though I appreciate the reassurances, they don't do much to calm my fears. I know I am as ready as I will ever be for this journey and for all this opportunity holds. I know my classes, trips and experiences will teach me more than I may ever find the words for. My Theatre Director in high school always said "Fear is excitement." The more you are afraid of something the more you are actually excited to jump in and experience it. This has stuck with me throughout so much of my life in the times where I am afraid. This is what I have been building up to and it still does not feel quite real even now as I see the plane waiting to take me. I will be travelling until 3pm on Thursday January 30th Russia Time. Please send good vibes and give me the strength to persevere.
